Whenever I record these videos, in my mind I am critiquing myself. I
don’t care what others think of it – I care about the level of
perfection I expect from myself. While that red light is on, I notice a
sniffle, eye roll, “um”, etc. Every. Single. One. It’s like my “awake
dreams”. You know the kind. Where you are sound asleep dreaming, but you
are also awake… judging or controlling or observing the dream. I’ve
been able to alter a dream from this state, but also be in complete
terror from them. All of this is completely illogical – and I know it. I
know it, yet still I do it to myself. Then I replay the video and it’s
never as bad as I think it is while recording… and I eventually wake up
from that crazy assed dream.
The mind is a mystery to me. But the one thing I do know…thoughts are
where our power lies. We are the thoughts we think. In my life
recently, the worry thoughts tried to take over. And today I decided to
STOP. And I’m replacing each worry with “All is well at this moment.”
And more “I am” statements.
I am growing.
I am loving.
I am serving.
I am healthy.
I am successful.
I am prosperous.
I am blessed.
I am grateful.
What are you?
It’s working. I haven’t worried in hours. It was today that I realized how successful I truly have been with these challenges.
Love and Prayers, Laura
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